…12/14/08
in silence, i listen to my watch’s timed ticking and the wind’s holy whisper. i find my sanctuary in the beautiful melody of heartbeats molding together, melting in the warmth of each other’s love, becoming one in the process. it’s not just love, it’s the satisfaction of being beside you, right here beside you i could die happy. could you say the same? when i touch you do you feel my love? i want to give it all, overwhelm you with the truth of how much i want you. i want to scream it out so that i won’t have to hide my feelings from your deep meaningful stares. you don’t know how hard it is to answer your questions and omit the part of you being on my mind.. it’s a struggle to pretend you’re nothing to me but a friend. it’s a war inside of me, my mind and my heart fighting over the fact that i’m falling. hard to admit, but i’m failing to resist the tempting promise of my first true love. we are one now, but neither of us would speak of it. i am partly yours now, for you have my heart, you have my love…-_-
